Mr. President...

I typed this poem for a poetry book that i have to do for English and i thought I'd share it with you.



Dear George,
You've brought shame to this nation.
You never had our best at heart.
How do you live with yourself while others die for your mistake?
Don't apologize to me, for it is not my life that ou shell take.

hey fam!!!!!!

hey. i know its been a while since i posted and i promised g-ma that i would try to post today so here i am. lets see.......... nothing really exciting in my life has happened that you dont know about.....so......oh im still a vegetarian witch shatters kendras gues saying i would be one for about a week and then give in. lol. okay. i guess i must talk about my myspace and how everyone is taking it in the wrong way. alright........ um i know people have been conserned about my myspace latly because it does have darker images on it. im not going to lie and say i didnt know what i was putting uyp there because i did. some of the stuff you wouldnt understand because alot of things i do are part of inside jokes between me and my best friends. Im also not going to lie to myself and everyone else and say that i dont get depressed at times and that everything is fine because i do get depressed or sad at times and everything is NEVER going to be perfect. so im going to express my feeling on my myspace. i feel like im tired of hiding my feelings and yes i do like dark art and darker images not because im trying to make people worry its because ive been there/am there sometimes and i respect them. im not saying i only like "emo" or dark things i like preppy things too like the cloud layout and happy faces and eerything else all the preppy people like but still just because i like that stuff dosent make me suicidal. i mean now im strong enough that ive been through crap in my life that i wish i didnt have to go through and im still a freshman in highschool. i mean i have so much more to go through that now i can talk to people about things that have happened. i mean yes ive made mistakes and i will make mistakes because im a kid its wat i do and yes i deal with teenage angst like everyother kid in the world but now i can tell people im having problems. i realize now that it isnt good to keep things inside. i can talk to people and that makes me feel better. im not suicidal. i like dark art. i like to express myself in all kinds of ways and thats one of them. another is writing poems. it helps. but i really dont want anyone to worry about me. im fine i promise. trust me if i have problems now i tell people so they can try to help me because i dont want to go through that again and i know i hurt you guys during that and i really dont want to do that. but you just have to let me be me. let me make mistakes let me be me and let me express it. im tired of trying to keep all these things locked up. im tired of trying to walk on broken glass or walk on egg shells whatever you like to walk on because its to hard for me. i want my friends and especially my family to except me as i am. thats all i really want. im really sorry if im not what the family wants me to be and im sorry if i dont turn out to be a better person or a doctor or lawyer. im sorry about all these things but this is who i am and i just really hope that as my family you can except that. thats all i ask for. okay i think thats it. so if anyone wants to talk to me thencall me or email me or somethng.......famous last words: when you say peace, mean it. PEACE TO EVERYONE!!!!!!!!!!!!!amber

explanation?

Every day your not here with us it tears my heart in two. It's so hard to go day by day neither seeing your smile nor hearing you laugh. I still dont understand why it had to be this way you had a family. You had a little girl who loved you so much. She was so sad when she got the news. She didn't know where to run to. She didn't know what to do. Shes never cried so hard in her life. The day of the funeral her eyes were stained with tears from the many nights before. She got through the service not holding back the tears but it seemed she had cried all of them over the past three days. They took you out to your "final resting place," they lowered your coffin into the ground. The only thing she could think about was that this couldn't be the end. She wanted to run. She wanted to just get away, but it's like her feet were part of the ground, she couldn't move. She wanted to turn back time and sacrafice herself to save you. For almost a month after that horrible day she would come home, lie down on her bed, and talk to you. Its like you were the best friend she could never touch, never hug, and never kiss goodbye again. You would sit there in silence but she knew you were listening. Sometimes she could still hear your laugh and see you smiling at her. she could feel you hug her. She wanted to be able to see you. She wanted to be able to see you. She wanted to visit your grave but she didn't think it would help. People said it was stupid to talk to "noone" but she knew you were listening. Then one day she questioned that. She didnt talk to you for week's to see if you really did listen to her. Nothing changed. Everything was the same. She then fell into depression. She didn't think anyone listened to her. She finally realized that people did care and that people do listen. That troubled girl talks to you now and again. Once again she can see you smiling at her, hear you laugh and can feel you hugging me goodbye. She has never gotten completely over it but its getting better.

That little troubled girl is me.

*In honor and dedicated to Richard Carnahan. Always remembered and loved.*

city museum

gina picked me up on friday and took me to indy. it was really fun. we made pasta and watched "whats eating gilbert grape." Thats a really good movie. then on saturday we drove from indy to st.louis. it was a really long drive. when we got to st.louis we went to the city museum. im not in the best mood so ill finish this later

got to go eat.<3

the old days...

Remember…
Before Sidekicks & iPods.Before MIKE JONESBefore PlayStation2 or X-BOX.Before the 5 hours(5min) of homework you put off every night.WHEN LIGHT UP SNEAKERS WERE KOOLWhen you rented VHS tapes, not DVDs.When gas was $0.95 a gallon & Caller ID was a new thing.When we recorded stuff on VCRs & paid $3.50 for a movie.When we called the radio station to request songs to hear off our walkmans.When 2Pac and Biggie where alive.When the Chicago Bulls were the best team ever.Way back..........Tag and freeze tag.Hide-n-Go Seek at dusk.Red Light, Green Light.Heads Up 7 Up.Playing kickball & dodgeball until your porch light came on.Hopscotch.Slip-n-Slides.Tree Houses.Hula Hoops.Skip-its.Reading R.L. Stine's Goose Bumps.The annoying Nano Pets & Furbies.Running through the sprinklers.Crying when Mufasa died in the Lion King.Happy Meals where you chose a Barbie or a Hot Wheels car.Getting the privelage to sit in the front seat of the car.Drinking Sqeeze It "Squeeze The Fun Out Of It."But wait....Watching Saturday Morning Cartoons in your PJ's still wrapped up in your Garfield comforter.Hey Arnold, Doug, Rugrats.The original Power RangersOr what about....The Secret Life of Alex Mac.Ren & Stimpy.Double Dare.Rocko's Modern Life.AAAHH!! REAL MONSTERS.Wild & Crazy Kids.Clarissa Explains it All.Salute Your Shorts.Are You Afraid of the Dark?The original cast members of All That.Kenan & Kel.The Magic School Bus.Flash Forward.Pete and Pete.Legends of the Hidden Temple.Hey Dude.Dinosaurs.Pinky and the Brain.Blossom.Hangin' With Mr. Copper.Wishbone.Bill-Nye the Science Guy.Kablamm.And If you're old enough...ThundercatsSilverhawksTransformersGo_BotsG.I. JoeVoltron!!HeathcliffGumbyWho could forget Snick? & Nick @ Nite with Bewitched, I Dream of Jeanie, The Facts of Life, & I Love Lucy.Where everyone wanted to be in love after watching The Wonder Years.Or Nick Jr. with Face.Gulah-Gulah Island.Little Bear.Under the Umbrella Tree.The Busy World of Richard Scary.The Adventures of Winnie the Pooh.Kool-Aid was the drink of choice.Wearing your new shoes on the first day of school.Class field trips.When Christmas was the most exciting time of year.When $5 seemed like a million, & another dollar a miracle.When you begged to go to McDonalds for dinner everyday.When Toys 'R' Us overuled the mall.Go back to the time when.....Argument's were only started when it came to who was gonna be the redranger.Decisions were made by going 'eeny-meeny-miney-moe'.Mistakes were corrected by simply exclaiming 'do over!''Race issue' ment arguing about who ran the fastest.Money issues were handled by whoever was banker in 'Monopoly'.It wasn't odd to have two or three 'best' friends.Being old referred to anyone over 20.A chance to skate as a couple at the local roller rink was like winning the lottery.Scrapes & bruises were kissed & made better.It was a big deal to finally be tall enough to ride the 'big people' rides at the fair.When playing Nintendo was the hardest thing ever.When Ninja Turtles ruled the world.When Lisa Frank was the raddest thing ever.When a candy bar at the grocery store was the highlight of your day.When coupons collected all year could get you a prize in your class auction.When the only thing you cried over was your mom being late to pick you up.When stress was addition and subtraction.When friendships were as complicated as who's house to sleep over.When shaving cream was just meant for play.When a first kiss only lead to cooties.When Valentines Day meant cards for all.When birthdays were a class event.When a friend moving away was the saddest day of your life.When the summer lasted forever.When time didn't matter.These were the days we hadn't realized escaped us until it's all brought back.When taking a bath is all you really feared.When your parents would call you in during a good game of hide and seek and you would beg for 5 more mins.
someone posted this on myspace and it made me think about how true it is. you dont realize it till its over.

Biology turned me into a vegetarian!!

Today and all this week we have to disect things. today we had to disect a craw fish or something. I was so disgusted. my friend mistie started crying because her partners were mutalating it. my partners were torturing ours and i almost cried. later that day my grandma fixed me lunch. we had potatoes and carrots and green beans and smoked sausage. it was good but once i started to eat the sausage it was so hard to get it down. its hard to eat meat because you can just see the animal and smell the fermaldahide. i dont know if thats how you spell it but either way its nasty. i was talking, well kind of debating, with my teacher Mrs.Payton about why we had to disect things when people have done it before its going to be the same results. why cant we just learn from a diagram. i mean itll be the same. i can understand maybe having scientist disect something once every like twenty years to see if any changes have been made but not to sacrifice hundreds of animals each year because they can. things dont change that often. i think we should create a software for education on disecting so that so many animals arent raised and killed. i know people argue that they dont kill the animals the die naturally on those animal farms for "education." but how could they all die at the same time and be in perfect condition. its sick. i mean how would you feel if you were raised to get killed and then get disected. you wouldnt die naturally they'll kill you then soak you in fermaldahide. yea when you just think of the frog it dosent occur to you but what if you where him/her. how would you feel. next time think about what your eating and/or disecting. what if you were that animal. how would you feel? for more info on this topic or other animal cruality article visit www.peta2.com

July 21 Topic

If I was a superhero what three powers would I pick? Would I use them for good or evil and how would the powers be used? Example-mind control---used for good-to regain world peace.

Welcome

Welcome Amber to your new home for your journalistic efforts. I will think of your first topic and post it on my lunch hour!